Silence...

I can hear the deafening sound of loneliness shouting at me):

Yero-it-it-sikik-sikik
(zero-eight-eight-six-six)

Yesterday, I gave myself the right to be disappointed. Gypsie, a classmate of mine way back second year high school met me somewhere in Pasig so we can talk about her proposal to teach English to a set of Korean kids. I felt somewhat interested so I went and grabbed the opportunity. Anyway, I was thinking this could be a great start to my aching plan of life's major overhaul.

Kevin, the korean who tied up with Gypsie about the entire business seemed to be a kind, smiling guy. It was about five o'clock in the afternoon when I got to talk to him for some sort of interview about myself. Did I make a mess out of it? When I explained things to him I saw puzzled looks left on his face. Maybe because according to my friend, his English fluency isn't that polished yet making him unable to understand me well. ):

Everything ended up with Kevin wanting me to e-mail him my resume (resum as what he pronounced it). There was a tinge of reluctance on his face. The resume thing is still on hold until I get further notice from Gypsie. When I went home, I've got a strong feeling I wouldn't be able to get the job. I was also unsure if I still want it anymore. Disappointment clouded my head although I know I wouldn't be feeling this longer since I find it hard to understand how they pronounce words. At this point, I don't want another stress-inducing job since I intend to fix and heal my wounded emotional aspect. Well, don't get me wrong. I can still manage to handle other kind of pressure and stress but not able to understand Koreans at their first stroke of words is way too stressful on my end since this work requires me communicating with them everyday.

I woke up today feeling a bit of disappointment still but rather thinking that this job is not tailored for me. It's not just meant for me.

Media Suicide

I don't know what went to his mind when Arroyo agreed to do a lIve interview with mareng winnie and igan. The interview had been so transparent to show how his stupid reasons left him dead and humiliating in front of taxpaying filipinos. Ill-gotten wealth is really unexplainable. We should understand why he made a total mess out of this interview. HAhahaha! Indeed, Arroyo's corrupt doings made them richer and richer while majority of the Filipinos become poorer and poorer. Our sacrifice is their gain. They teach us to do some belt-tightening habang nagpapakasasa sila sa pera ng milyon-milyong mamamayan. Thank God, we're wise enough to know. Salamat sa interview na ito.

Ilang bahay pa nga ba meron sila sa ibang bansa na nakatago sa pangalang Arroyo?

I hate Cakes

My friend told me that there's something special about cakes during birthdays. She said, it's the fancy of believing to what they call "ONe candle, one wish.." I couldn't almost relate to the feeling she shared since I hate cakes no matter how beautiful it present itself...anyway, some people made me feel like an icing melting to a bunch of thoughtful thoughts friends baked for me...Here's something that refreshed me after a night of stressful phone calls that always keep coming...

-----Original Message-----
From: "Nicethor Baltazar" <nicethorbaltazar@yahoo.com>
Sent 9/9/2009 9:29:23 AM
To: "Rhods"
Subject: HAppy Bday!!!

Rhods,

Happy bday to u.

Thanks for being there always.

......as a a good friend

.....as an editor..lols.

dami ko natututunan sa u as a writer...specially now binabalik ko na pagsusulat ko through my blog. hope di ka magsawa magedit. nyahehe.

...ingats always! God bless u always

-----------------------------------------------------

One candle, one wish..is it true? I don't know...but someday, in my wishful thinking, I dream of spending the rest of my birthdays with someone who will feel lucky enough for celebrating such a special day with me...someone happier than I am. Maybe, I would love cakes then.

One night of Danger

I never knew the feeling until I witnessed it last night. Horrifying...I left my house around 12 midnight, sleepy and still feeling tired since working graveyard is so stressful. I took a jeep going to Guadalupe. It was not an empty ride. There was a middle-aged woman embracing her bags put on her lap. She was sitting right across me. I remembered even passing her "pamasahe" to the driver and even asked, " sa tulay po kayo?", she shook her head. "sa west lang ako.."West Rembo, for those so many who are not familiar with the place, is just so near where i took the jeep...

Along Pembo, there were 2 guys who took the same jeep where we were in. Ung isa nakasabit while the other one was sitting just an elbow beside me. Well, yeah. I usually sit middle of the jeep but last night, since ayoko mag abot ng pamasahe sa driver dahil super haba ng jeep, I intentionally sit beside that guy...my bag with my jacket clung to it was placed on my lap handsfree.

A few Blocks just before the middle-aged woman took-off the jeep...I don't know....but I instinctively grasped my bag and placed it on the left side of me..opposite that pretentious guy sitting right next to me...and then.."para! para! Para! sigaw nung guy na nakasabit. And then all of a sudden, when I turned my head right of me, the guy beside me incredibly nabbed the middle-aged woman's bag in a jiffy..The snatcher ran fast the narrow street and gone...totally eaten whole by the darkness..The woman was almost in tears. I had goosebumps all over me. Shocking!

Unexplainable...It was as if I had a telepathic mind that night. I realized how lucky and Loved I am. God never failed me in those times that I am unawarely needing His presence. Amazing. He's always right on time. Have I done something good to be blessed with such protection and care? Maybe. I don't know. I just realized that there were unseen angels around us sent by Him to keep us safe.. and the only way for us to send thank you is to be good in His eyes. Wonderful.

The night has pangs, it surfaced dangers. I learned that it would always be better to be keen and observant of the things and people around you. Maybe, next time I would go to work far earlier than devil's time. Our safety is something God wants us to be enveloped with.

Last night was one of those days when I could say that I have fully seen HIm. After all, that woman could have been me.

Evanescent

It is because of you why I am acutely aware of how unhappy I am...:(

Strum

"I just want to go there and hug you..." for a moment, i feel like a melting ice that succumbs through the warmth of something which I can't yet find a name for. I dont know how to call it...i mean, the feeling that sends shiver down my spine...so vague yet it's there. Words come so unexpectedly and when he uttered it, i notice my feet floating above the clouds. blissful. I could almost hold happiness at the palm of my hand. It is his sweet gentle fingers strumming my heart.:)

BLindfold

Democratic or pseudo-democratic?

fascists...

we yearn to practice freedom.

A Shopaholic for Nothing..:(

Have you ever realized how dependable your friend is?

Long thick eye lashes, new clothes and accessories..a walking vanity mirror.
I was stuck in the mud and you came to stare. Claim all the beauty but that is all you got and all you are.

Sleep with beauty

Walk with elegance

Dress like vogue

But turn to no one...

Facade...

One day, your friends will put a tag price on you too...

Your worth becomes priceless and gold the moment you weather the storm with a friend.

I want someone who comes out like blood when I'm wounded...

E for Effort

Para sa mga taong naistorbo ko, napuyat, nahilo ko at kinulit ng walang sawa habang naghahanap ng space for rent...

Roman Claudio-- the copy-paste-and-save man.
pagkatapos ko sya istorbohin thru ym, i was surprised to know that he copied-pasted-and-saved these stuff for me.

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Rox and Trina

Small people can do great things..Lol! Si rox na sumama saken nagbuhat ng things...kay trina na pinagalitan ng nanay, sa lahat ng mga antok natin na padami ng padami araw-araw

Ate Joy and Her bestfriend
Glen Carlo Arocha
XXtian

Thanks, Thanks!!!:)

I have been away from the pc screen for... well... almost a month I guess..imagine this, 1124 unread emails, 109 facebook notifications..what else... Where have I been?! Lol! JUly is really a tough month for me..you know...father suffering from a heart disease, sister with pangs growing, growling everyday..stressful demanding job, financial disaster every now and then, looking for a new place to stay...*sigh...it's really a rainy month, isn't it? I am soaking wet.

I have actually been yearning to visit my sweetrhoda.blogspot all through those days that I was gone but hey, I found it really difficult to sit down and face a blank space with cursor blinking at me and all that while my mind is so full of pensive wrecking thoughts. It was like, I have a baggage of things to write but my mind thinks faster than my fingers can type... I felt so down that all I can do was just stare and watch everything fall into piesces...eventually, I was no difference to a blank boring space.. only that... yes, I went blank but not really.

Good thing, I have weathered them one by one..on my way to fully recovering and drying my self up after the storm. Everything is slowly going back to its proper place now. The most peaceful thing is, I have found a new corner under the sun and it somehow excites me to log out of my avaya and hurry home.. no, don't get me wrong. My newly found place is not palace-like that glitters from afar but I love it. I love the feeling of laying down, resting myself to sleep without having to worry what a house mate would say...I mean, what a growling house mate would say...(Lol!) Priceless!:)

What a dose of growing-up lessons to learn! What can I say..Bring it on!!!:)

Empty Weekends....

...I don't want empty weekends anymore:(

Help, I dig my own grave!

Last night, I woke up with severe upper right back pain and an aching throat. I couldn't explain the feeling but pain caused me to absent from job that day. I was awake all night for not feeling well especially that during the prior weekend I was suffering from peptic ulcer. I could not remember anymore what time I was able to rest myself to sleep. When I woke up this morning, I was a bit okay and friends have actually advised me to just give my tired body much of a rest. Amidst me sitting in front of the porch, I realized these pains are something I never experienced before, knowing that I used to have a very healthy strong immune system. Could it be that my job has taken its toll on me already?! Not sure...I am frightened... here's what I found out...

1. Reports say that working night shift could increase women's risk of breast cancer. The disruption of body clock could hinder the production of melatonin that increases our risk of cancer. *melatonin is known as a substance that helps prevent cancer cells from growing*.

2. Deep Vein Thrombosis (DVT). Something we can acquire from sitting and taking in calls for long hours. The said medical condition can cause blood clot forming that could travel and eventually lodge our heart or lungs.

3. BurnOut Stress Syndrome (BOSS). This can cause high psychological job stress and depression. Symptoms include chronic fatigue and stress which could affect the heart and endocrine system, insomnia.

4. Muskuloskeletal Disorder- outsourcing body pain along the work.

5. Computer Vision Syndrome- Soreness, dryness, blurred vision, light sensitivity and headache.

6. Dysphonia- inability to speak, pain croakiness of voice, irritating cough, poor vocal power, inability to modulate and breathing difficulties.

7. Severe Stomach Related problems

8. Ear Problems

9. Sleeping Disorders.

10. Acoustic Shocks- any temporary or permanent disturbance of the functioning of the ear, or of the nervous system, which may be caused to the user of a telephone earphone by a sudden sharp rise in the acoustic pressure produced by it".

We, call center agents are often told to satisfy customers by providing excellent customer service. We have lots of unmanaged stress and pressure cause partly by customers who have unaddressesd issues of their own. We often hear them bad-mouthing us and we as an ever loyal blinded employees are told by our employers to just grin and bear it. tsk! tsk! tsk!

References:

http://www.tingog.com/technology/call-center-operators-at-risk-for-deadly-dvt.html

Human Resource Management and Occupational safety By Carol Boyd

http://www.ijoem.com/article.asp?issn=0019-5278;year=2005;volume=9;issue=3;spage=129;epage=132;aulast=Sudhashree

http://www.bpoindia.org/research/human-issues-in-call-centers.shtml

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/6157350.stm

Dear Brokenhearted,

I just came from the gym with lots of heart-wrecking things to tell you... the deepest feeling of melancholy triggered by the heavy rain had open floodgate of emotions which I wish to escape from...how I wish rain would make me numb and incapable of recognizing pain, emptiness, and sadness...

...I'm sorry I am too busy to sit down with you right now and enumerate disappointing things that happened today but I'll get back to you as soon as I can...

Sleepyhead,
Rhoda

One Fine Fruitas Moment

Sweaty and all that..we never get to skip one fine fruitas moment in one of the comfy Alimall Cubao couches after work out. And here's what my sleepy eyes caught while staring at Fruitas cup...read on...

Strawberry a good refreshing cleanser for the whole body. Orange helps in cleaning up your

system. Melon a gentle laxative that stimulates action on the kidney. Watermelon stimulates the appetite,

while cleansing the bladder and the kidneys. Apple helps relieve indigestion. Keep cholesterol still and

suppress the appetite. Banana an excellent aid in digestion. Mango gives energy, vitality and promotes

healthy skin. Papaya an energy booster that stimulates the appetite and cleanses the internal organ.

Pineapple aids in the digestion of protein. Grape an excellent metabolism stimulator.:)

I found out apple shake tastes great. You should try it.

*The stalking Cubao clouds were always been raining since we started meeting Kuya Eoji of Telus Cubao GYm. Working out/shopping (Lol) has been a great outlet of releasing stress. I personally would not mind strolling amidst the rain just to get there.

12 killed as boat capsizes on way to Puerto Galera

"Let's all pray for TC Nina Cads eternal repose. She encountered a boat accident yesterday on her way to Puerto Galera." I woke up last sunday with this text message coming from my supervisor TC Mac. I was shocked. I had to read all over again, scroll up and down looking for some twist of joke in his message but booom...it ended there. Her face registered right through my head when another unread message confirmed what the first tried to say, "Nina Cads died in an accident today at Puerto Galera. The boat was hit with big waves and it flipped over. She was declared dead on arrival by the doctor around 3:25pm. She was with TC Mae Benitez during that time. It was Mae's team building, 6 agents joined the activity. We have a total of 8 participants 2 of which were Mae and Nina. All of them survived except Nina. We are now coordinating with local authorities regarding the transport of her body. I have already informed Boss JP and Boss JC. Bodge already informed Nina's family. I already spoke with Nina's father regarding the travel details. Please cascade to your tam and let's offer a prayer for Nina's soul. May she rest in peace." I immediately texted my friend then to gather further information about the accident. I don't know. It's just that I couldn't believe it happened in just a snap of a finger...especially for someone I used to always see in my workplace. Immeasurable pain surfaced me thinking as to how her family and friend would react upon hearing what had happened. I couldn't imagine how it broke their heart..it's way beyond thoughts. Until now, I still get goose bumps all over whenever it crosses my mind. My sincere condolences to the family of the victims. Prayers for them and strength to those who were left behind.

12 Killed as boat capsizes on way to Puerto Galera

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Overloading and tinuturong dahilan ng pagtaob ng nasabing ferry. Sa 42 katao na maximum capacity nito, 55 ang itinakdang sakay ng nasabing sasakyan nitong sabado. Marami sa mga biktimang namatay ay pawang mga bata na sa murang edad ay pinagkaitan na agad ng pagkakataong lumaki at abutin ang kanilang pangarap. Tsk tsk! Hindi ako nagkaroon ng oras para makita ang sakit sa mukha ng mga naiwan nilang pamilya at iba pang mahal sa buhay pero ang isiping nawalan ka, nawalan sila ay sapat na para maramdaman ko na unti-unti lumalatay din ang sakit na iyon sa puso ko. 12 katao ang kailangang mag buwis ng buhay dahil sa malaking kapabayaan at pagiging iresponsable ng mga taong namumuno sa ferry. Huwag tayong sumugal kapag buhay ang pinag uusapan dahil tulad ng buhay ng mga opisyal ng ferry na ito, may mga taong sumasaya dahil sa kanila..mga tao na lumuluha ngayon at umaasa na sana malagpasan din nila ng matiwasay ang alon na dulot ng sakit ng pagkawala.

A few reminders before taking in calls. ..

track our xfers.

wear your EOP pins or else HR will be IRing (do what now?!) you...

don't laugh like a hyena

always pray before you start your shift

don't leave your car keys inside your car

eat healthy

take in calls with a smile

don't forget to wake up when you are sleeping in the snooze box.

To: Sweetrhoda

From: Darkcupid

Sulat ni Sir Val after extensive comm.skills and prod specs training...

I want to see CGE Batch 38 shine!

Hi guys,

Today, my responsibility to all of you as a trainer stops. Do not treat me anymore as your trainer but as your friend. I believe that I have imparted to you not just the policies and procedures of the account but the culture as well. CGE is a fun account and it recognizes each person’s talents. I hope I can see you let go of your hesitations and show the talents that you have. I also hope that you can find friends aside from your co-trainees. I just would like to thank y’all for the lessons you taught me. Alam n’yo naman na kayo ang first time ko. At memorable ang first time. I am looking forward to the day that I will be able to see your names on the different recognition bulletins. I can’t wait for your commendations to keep on coming. If ever you need me, I am just around. To the QAAs, see you during calibrations, train-the-trainer sessions and PEP rally. I attached one of the articles that I love most. This became a refuge for me. It let me see things when I was beneath the rubble of crap. Enjoy reading.

The Awakening by Virginia Swift
The Awakening
A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter). and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you, and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect, and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are and its OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself, and in the process a sense of newly found confidence is born of self-approval.
You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that not everyone will always be there for you, and that it's not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin to accept people as they are, and to over look their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what you should wear, where you should shop, what you should drive, how and where you should live, what you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, who you should marry, what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing, and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with, and in the process you learn to go with your instincts. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable, or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the child that bears your name.
You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love. and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms. Just to make you happy. And, you learn that 'alone' does not mean lonely.
And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." You also stop working so hard at putting feelings aside, smoothing things over, and ignoring your needs.
You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. . . and that it is your right to want things that you want. and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands. You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect, and you will not settle for less. And you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to glorify you with his or her touch. and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.
And you learn that your body really is your temple. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water, and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear, so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul, so you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve. and that much of life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success, you need direction, discipline, and perseverance.
You also learn that no one can do it all alone and its OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time: FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears, because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve, and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy, and resentment must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

Tama na ang drama..Go auto in!